I am so sorry ..  

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I am so sorry I am doing this to you.
I don't mean to put you through the pain I am putting your though.
I have more than just feelings for you .
I am in love with you.

I started to cry tonight.
When I realized you might walk out of my life.

The tears of pain streamed down my face.
I guess God is trying to put me in my place.

What did I do to deserve you?
Your love is so simple and true.
Your heart is pure as gold through and through.

You have touched my soul
You have touched my heart
And I am so sorry for what
I have done to you from the start.

Please forgive me.
I do love you.
All the way to the
Bottom of my heart..




My PrOmIsE....  

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During the moment of your troubles
Like you feel lost in the mid-sea
You want to scream but dumb-founded
There's no hope around to be

You look around to be in search of someone
You see no limit but an endless horizon
you wanna scream at the top of your voice
There, you hear a feeble sound like noise

You are stunt when you turned around
You see me there with extended arms
For i promise to appear whenever you need
Becoz you are my soul, my heart and my want

I howl, i cry and even i try to die
But will never desert you when storm rises high
I'll be your light in your darkness
For i'm your rescue at your every sigh




FaItH iN lOvE...  

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Everything is just like a dream
when love beats your heart
Like rainbow after the rain
Love makes your world fall apart

My wish is to be with you
Even death crossed me through
When i realised my love is you
My happiness is when you realised too

My faith spoke a million words
Tho' all i went through is worse
But when my 'star' broke me down
My life had shattered to the ground

The moon drove me back to this lane
To save my 'star' inspite he failed
However beaten and broken i am
The faith in me cropped up again




MorNinG bReeZe...  

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Although i am the morning breeze
Cyclones and hurricanes are at my feet
Struggling to shield myself from them
To come to you across the street

Through out my life i'll compromise
Because The hope within me is tight...
I thought my life is a fairy tale
But i still struggle with the reality fight

All i cherished are gone away
To prove my worth, i shud slog each day
Dint realise how cruel is this unsatisfaction
Coz i realised my dreams by only illusions

This path i walk so thorny for me
You are the only company i want to see
Will i stop detesting myself one day?
And learn to love my life with thee




InComPleTe DesTinY...  

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In this painful solitude of mine
In the dark I hear the wind hissing
In my mind the numerous thoughts I ponder
In this horrible heart, I find something missing

These horrible nightmares appear to me
As I walk in the pool of blood
I wish all these were the lies
Or bury my soul into deep mud

I, the terrible victim…
Yet, I possess the strength inside
When I have knocked the door of death
But reality pushed me to survive

Although this is the test from above
Says I failed, but my love is true
This love will accompany my faith
To travel as far to reach you!




I fElt In LovE aGaiN...  

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Alone i sit with lonely memories
Wondering how life made me feel cheated
Passing the past that had killed me
Facing finally the mistakes that i created

At the end of the day, my heart broken
For my every move, i kept thinking
Eating my soul, enjoying my flesh
Not knowing the fact that my heart is sinking

Lord gave me a test, to make me stressed
Yet i failed even though i gave my best
Lying on my bed i asked for rescue
That time I came to know i need to rest

For the mistakes i made, i wont be the same
I have to admit that love is not a game
Raising my hands to ask for forgiveness
I cry in prayers, coz i felt in love again




UnkNowN IdeNtiTy...  

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I pasted permanently an artificial smile
And i find it hard to leave behind
I'm just a girl next door whom you know
But i'm not the girl whom you thought so

Some people don't care i exist
Some people only know i'm a mix
So many events have passed my life
Don't know still my own rights

Should i be somewhere else?
As far as i could ever go
Can someone take me there?
Ready to accompany like river flows

I won't worry but will wait
For you being my life's eternity
I'm a strong girl and won't let go
Even though my heart cries for an identity




ImpRisOneD EmoTioNs...  

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Imprisonned in this painful emotions
So painful i have nowhere to run
Soul shrunken, heart blacks & blues
I can only see my life's dead end

Surrounded by incredible worries
Choked by oxygen, suffocated to death
Tightful agonies torture me every second
The only way is to pray for my breathe

In total mess, I lay emotionally
Confusion captures my mind
No solution and no way out
In despair, what can i find?

Yet in faith, i see my strength
As days run, it will thicken
This devilish mind locks tight my thoughts
But faith in you, remains hard like rock!




OnE daY yoU'll UnDerStaNd...  

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This is God's whole plan
One day you will understand
Why is there a strange feeling?
You will understand its meaning

It's there in your breathe
Where you will finally see
For now you can't make out
It exists in you baby

Once i said you were the one
And that i say forever too
There is always no change of heart
There is no one to tear us apart

All moments i spend with you
I guarantee they are very true
You will feel it's in your heart
Somebody loves you from the start




WarM mE wIth YouR hEat...  

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The effects that you create
Have imprinted in my heart
The aura that you diffuse
Freshens my breathe till last

My yearnings rise to the star
Wanting to touch the sky
For every caress of yours
Makes me want to let out cry

With you wrapping me so tight
I can hear your fast heartbeat
Wish you could hold me forever
And warm me with your heat

When in love I have no fear
No demons can scare me thru’
The only vision I could see is
Your loving face and my love so true




If I CouLd NamE thIs BonD...  

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If i could name my bond
it would be an endless song
with a fabulous tune that rhymes
Lost in those pretty precious times

The bond that no one can guess
That relates you in loneliness
Once upon a time a boy & a girl
who fell in love within their nests

This bond was already destined
To this sad couple unsinned
They know nothing but true romance
Holding them by a thread so thin

If who could name this bond
kindly name also this song
For every note that plays along
will be the spirit of this bond




I wiLl Be ThEre...  

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When things are dark I'm always there
To hold your hands following you everywhere
Ease away your sorrows, lend you my shoulder
To keep you sane till you get older

Many times we accuse & fight like hell
But that increased our love as well
Those silly fights we often do
Make me miss you and my affection grew

The unintentional acts with unconditional love
Result by my care and support all above
There is no pain when expectations are less
Except your sincere love, I will be blessed

Nobody is perfect and so aint I be
That's how i'm made nowhere to flee
But to your eyes i am a flawless being
That's how my true love has made you feel




MaKe Me AliVe AgaIn...  

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Your harsh words couldn't harm me
But your silent torture is worse secretly
Hands are closed in fists of fury
Deep inside, i mourn in melody

Numerous tricks born out of your lies
Can't see when & dont know why
you are my blessing in disguise
It's just me, i'm not wise

it's been ages since i sleep in peace
No dream comes to make me pleased
All i hear is the silent scream
I'm not gifted, by this it seems

Gone are those days, but memories linger
Im with all, yet i'm a stranger
Addicted to this loneliness with you in mind
Where are you baby? i just cant find!




JusT A DreAm...  

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It was a dream but it looks so real
It's exactly what i want and what i feel
Touching a face, i caress it lightly
The face that wounded me, i want to heal

The soft skin of it against my hands
I knew it was you, it wasn't blank
My vision covered with my messed hair
you slide it away, as i fixed my stare

Moving closer, melting in you
Your soft voice tells that this is true
It's the same voice that i heard before
But it was a dream i could see no more

Your smell lingered even after i woke
I found myself smiling although i choked
my chest was heavy, my heart beat fast
How i wish this dream to ever last




You! My LaSt WiSh...  

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Gloomy mood, I can never forget
How I wish we had never met
Battling my thoughts every day or two
Yet can’t take my mind off you

Within my palms will hold your face
Don’t know when, where & which place?
Trust me; my love is so so true
This love will unite me with you

A year ago, I know no tears
Brooding my past, yet I have no fear
Until you came along my life
I’m sleeping everyday on brutal knife

I feel special, that’s how you treat me
Often I wonder how could it be?
Don’t ever desert me in this blue
For you live in me and I live in you




My DreAm Is You...  

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Inhale your deep breathe
Wish the cold wind to carry you
You should stop fearing things
You should be ready to go thru

Let your dreams carry you
Never open your eyes to stop
Dont hesitate to launch yourself
For he is your only hope

One day it will be realized
When everything seems so right
Deep down there in your heart
He will be at every sight

When heaven comes down to earth
She will reach out to hold him
Then will wake up from her dream
And give a long sigh from within




I am YouR StrEngTh...  

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Day and night i pray
For you to find a way
You should know to fight
Noone next to you will stay

With the best i can
To pull you out from agony
Have i failed in my effort?
To bring a smile in thee

Don't answer to all
Think you are not alone
For i'll be your strength
I'll make you raise tall

Forget all the tears you shed
It aches my heart too
Remember i live for you
Be happy even in your blues




If mY lOvE...  

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If my love is expressed
It would be a poem in melody
Each phrase depicts my heart
Each word rhymes in melancholy

If my love is written
It would be unerased within
Nobody would smudge it's form
It will not fade in storm

If my love is shown
That this bond is known
It has imprinted in me
As deep as the sea

If my love is displayed
It is most beautifully laid
It is the magnificient art
Even if it is torn apart




My WalLs KnoW...  

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Living as a corpse
I don't know how to think
Overshadowed by my anger
Uncontrolled by little things

Loneliness speaks louder
When solitude envelopes me
No one to share my pain
Only my walls echo again

Dampen the spirit by tears
Reaching out for rescue
Only you can lift me up
My walls only knew

Yet i feel being watched
At times when i am low
I'm never left on my own
His love is well shown




Is TheRe An EnD tO mY PaiN?  

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My heart does not stop bleeding
Whenever your face comes in front
Veins knotted my fist tightened
The pain you give can never end

Anger overshadows my soul
Helas! I still cry your name
Temper rises in my mind
Why are you doing the same?

Will I ever get out of this?
Your hurt is only worsened
Tongue-tied I cannot blame you
Waiting for my heart to mend

You failed to look into my eyes
All you did is break the ties
I struggle to put the pieces together
For I am used to your stupid lies




Am I YouR PreSent?  

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Look straight into my eyes
Does your heart feel content
Tell me with deep sincerity
That i am your life’s present

Right is not I always feel
But my heart utters the real
That you fake to me outwardly
Inwardly you try to reveal

Only I know the distressed you
No matter what the world see
You have decided life is to move on
All your sorrows you let them free

Remember I am not like others
I see what your heart shows
For you are my ultimate soul
Forever, your path I will follow




WhaT Is LovE?  

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(gift to me, dedicated to u...)

I wake up in tear drops
that fall down like rain
Realizing you're gone
always bring back the pain

I sit by my window
and watch the day die
Hating myself
for all the tears that I cried

I keep seeing your face
everywhere that we were
Hating you now
for being here

Your laughter haunts me
as I lay down in bed
Reminding me why
the tears I have shed

I'll never forget you baby
till the day that I die
I'll never forgive you baby
for making me cry

As i sit here and take a wow
Hope someday u will understand
What i feel for you
What is LOVE ?





OuR ApriL 23rd...  

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Endless time i'll never forget
Those bright full moon nights
Our hopes and dreams were spoken
And our silly little fights

Unforgettable is your face
As my guide, philosopher and friend
The promises that you will stay beside
Till eternal time never ends

My lovely laughs you heard
Along with my sad unspoken tears
Everything in me you admired
Within no time you chased away my fears

Those four wonderful days
Made me never stop loving you
Reason why i am here now
To take you forever through


---===---


I can see the pain you suffer
From which you try to escape
I can see the damage you've broken from
I can see your worst mistakes

I know who you are inside
You're deepest secrets are known
And in the dark of this bright night
All your wounds will be sown

When i look into your eyes
I can see this mad man inside
And temptation screams in the pit of my stomach
And i reach to dry your eyes.

One single candle burns
And not a sound is made
For in the silence of this room
Our bodies make a trade

You're pain for my pleasure
You're pleasure for my pain
Ever so slightly i hear it quietly
You try to whisper my name

A rhythm not another couple could master
I look deep into your emotions
I see your being to me at the moment
I see your deepest devotions

Tangled in these sheets we twist
Into another secret place
I see the pleasure etched in every muscle
I read it on your face

Our bodies close together; shaking
Like the most intense vibration
I scream out in sheer ectasy
You shudder at this sensation

Lifeless we cling to each other
In a moments fantasy
When just for once i helped you heal
For once, i felt you loved me..






Don'T LovE Me For PitY...  

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You are my lover and friend
That I have all in one
Anyone lucky like me?
All i can say is none

You never hide me anything
Including the girls you meet
You shudder my tiny heart
And you make me incomplete

I start my journey with you
Where no destination i reach
I let time give me an answer
And listen to your every preach

Luck is what i only wish
And living by your side
Even if you love me with pity
I don't have the right to whine




Why I SheD mY TeaRs?  

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All my hidden tears
All my feelings inside
All my pains that passed by
All i want is die

Broken down each day
None has nothing to say
All my dreams washed away
I hope there will be a way

My unseen artificial smiles
There is no decision behind
Thorny path i walk on
My life has no rewind

Blinded by things i do
Disturbed mind & vexed thoughts
Noone beside to confide
My problems always in clot

Trying to approach very near
That's the reason i'm here
But still battling with my fears
Not knowing why i shed my tears




UnkNowN PaiN...  

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I just want you to listen
To the soft whispering murmur
Of the music in this night
Where you carry my love further

May be you haven't tasted this pain
Or your's was washed like rain
The pleasure in it is sweet
The expect to end it in vain

The pain of wanting to be needed
But the pain in giving remains
That's why the hurt is still the same
At the end of the day there's no gain

You refuse to hear me
You don't let me see how you were
Deep in my soul the truth lies
To have you but you are not there

My heart stays open wide
Waiting for you to step in there
Hug me and hold me tight
Even though if you don't ever care.




Go AwaY sLeePless NighTs...  

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Oh my sleepless nights
Cruel demons everyday i fight
No weapons i could shield
My lonely bed is my battle field

Protecting myself by my cover
Drifting in sleep with my lover
Pillow drenched with my tears
Yet i'm envelopped by my fears

Around is the night so calm
Wanting to seclude in your arms
So tiring i can't sleep
All i do is only weep

Waiting tomorrow the sun to shine
To stop the battle in this heart of mine
Wanting to escape from this sleepless night
In order to avoid all my hopeless fights.